I used to make Shake and Bake pancakes.

Just the act of writing of it, the thought of it, I despise myself. Shake and Bake. Break and Bake. Eat and Die. Ok, a bit dramatic but when I dwell on the things I used to eat and worse, FEED MY FAMILY, I cringe.

My sister Sarah and I were sitting around her breakfast table, drinking tea and coffee and talking life and food, and she says to me…SHE SAYS… “Bek, just start reading the ingredient list. It’ll change everything.”. Pfft. Who has time for this. So naturally the very next time I was at Publix I read the ingredient list of everything I would normally pick up because LESBEREAL I’ve got all the time in the world.

I either left with nothing or I left with a grocery bill the cost of a small country….I can’t even remember.

This did in fact, change everything for me. We started eating strict Paleo. This has evolved to mostly grain free (except for the life size bags of rice chips we devour from Costco) and dairy free (save for when I want a “real” coffee from Subculture with “real” cream. Oh. and the occasional piece of Coconut Cake Subculture also forces me to consume…every time I am there. Really, I have no choice in the matter.) Our dinners are mostly Paleo and all my baking is Paleo. We still eat lots of Hummus and lots of Peanut Butter, but those are staples in this house and relatively healthy. Most everything we buy is organic and natural. I’ve recently come across the Dirty Dozen and the Clean 15, so I buy my organic produce according to what this says and buy the rest at Publix. My shopping list takes me to Publix, Whole Foods, and Costco. Its a lot of driving and yes, we spend more money on good healthy foods, but this is just a non negotiable in our lives now that we care to know what is in the foods that we eat.

So, our schedule every day includes a 4pm class at Hard Exercise Works. (A Crossfit gym) This takes me away from home during prime dinner cooking hours, so I do a lot of prep before the gym and I also have fallen deeply in love with my crockpot.

CROCKPOT. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN CHOCOLATE. You’re my everything, its true. Prep, throw it in, come home, finish it up, eat it. Boom. I can put a sick dinner on the table, bathe my children, read to them, EVEN BRUSH THEIR TEETH…and still get them to bed on time by 7:30p. (i’ll be posting on this soon, people. put your kids to bed so you have a life.)

My favorite crockpot recipe as of late is Honey Sesame Chicken. I substitute a few things to make it strict Paleo.

image and recipe from the comfort of cooking

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You’ll Need:

4 chicken breasts, organic boneless skinless

Salt and pepper

1/2 cup diced onion

2 cloves garlic chopped

1/2 cup honey

1/4 cup ketchup (brand with no added sugar)

1/2 cup low-sodium soy sauce

2 tablespoons olive oil

1/4 teaspoon red pepper flakes (for families with kiddos, I use 1/8 teaspoon or less)

4 teaspoons almond flour (calls for cornstarch but I wanted the recipe Paleo)

1/3 cup water

1/2 tablespoon (or more) sesame seeds

3 scallions, chopped

Directions:

Place chicken in Crock Pot and lightly season both sides with salt and pepper.

In a medium bowl, combine onion, garlic, honey, ketchup, soy sauce, oil and red pepper flakes. Pour over chicken. Cook on low for 3-4 hours, or high for 2 hours.

Remove chicken to a cutting board, leaving sauce. Shred chicken into bite-sized pieces; set aside and cover to keep moisture in.

In a small bowl, dissolve 4 teaspoons of almond flour in 1/3 cup water; add to crock pot. Stir to combine with sauce. Cover and cook sauce on high for ten more minutes, or until slightly thickened.

Add cauliflower rice to 4 plates, top with chicken and spoon sauce over top. Sprinkle evenly with sesame seeds and chopped scallions.

 

I make cauliflower rice as opposed to using traditional rice. I actually prefer the consistency and I think it tastes much better with the chicken (I’ve tried white rice, brown rice, and then cauliflower)

recipe from the paleo cupboard

Cauliflower Rice

(prep time 10 mins, cook time 10 minutes, 4 servings)

You’ll Need:

1 head of cauliflower
1/2 white onion, diced
1 Tbsp. garlic, chopped
2 Tbsp. coconut oil
4 Tbsp. chicken broth
Dash sea salt
Dash ground pepper
Directions:
Cut Cauliflower into florets and place in food processor until its rice shaped. (dont over do it, or it’ll turn to mush)
Heat coconut oil in large sauté pan over medium high heat. Sauté onion and garlic for about 3 minutes
Add cauliflower, stir well.
Add chicken broth, sea salt and pepper. Saute for about 5 minutes until cauliflower is slightly tender.
Dunzo.

I wanna know how you ladies like this! I’ll be posting lots more recipes as I stumble across more that I love.

xoxo,

bek

aren’t they?

as I sit here trying to work and get a teensy bit done before we are off to the gym, I hear Josiah growling at his sister again. Oh just for the millionth time.

As I have countless times before, I yelled at the top of my lungs from upstairs in my office, loud enough that the neighbors down the street could probably hear, and told him to knock it off.

*sigh*, times a million.

Listen girls. I’m pretty sure no one told you how hard it was going to be, and some days are we are much nicer than others. Some days we have to tell our children to apologize for hurting others, and in the same breath apologize to our children for hurting them.

I must learn….I WILL learn that sometimes I’m insecure about being a mom…and insecurities are loud. Sometimes, they present themselves in voice form and my kids suffer because of it.

How can we, as moms, make conscious efforts in conversation with our little ones to always respond calmly in love? Well, I believe it starts with the heart. What are we putting into our minds? who is influencing us? what are we filling our time with? I have just recently come to discover Naptime Diaries. Its been a good daily read for me, and I’m currently going thru her Lent book (40 days with Jesus). I’ve also found Thrive Moms on instagram and am loving seeing the encouragement coming thru the feed. I love to read anything by Jen Hatmaker, because well, I’m obsessed with her honestly…but mostly because she is so raw and real and like me, comes at much of life with sarcasm…always coming full circle though right back to her heart for the Lord.

I’m trying to put good things in, and praying that good comes out.

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I get all my rad quotes from Pinterest, and will be writing about my own boards here soon.

xoxo,

beka

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I’m back. I know, its been a long time…too long. The best way I knew to start over was to start with complete vulnerability.

So, if you know me…you know unless you’re my immediate family or The Musha’s (my dear dear friends), I’ll never leave home without makeup. Not a lot of makeup, I’m a simple girl. But makeup, yes..Lord. Thank you. So, hello again everyone. Here I am above, just having woken up (wait, just haven RISEN from the cold ground after “camping” with 3 other hot bodies in a tent made for 2 people in a horse field in snake season in Florida…aka, no sleep happened this night.) No makeup, hair a mess, sleepy eyes…thank you Ben for capturing me just as I am (and for loving this image of me).

My other disclaimer for those reading, is that I write like I talk. I am not a grammar freak and I am in no way proper. My advice if you are…deal.

I used to force myself to commit in writing. Commit to the same weekly posts and interviews, giving myself deadlines and therefore anxieties. I learned some lessons from this, and I wont be doing that anymore. I am excited to post when I want to…when I feel the need and the stirring. You’ll probably read about my family, relationships, all sorts of things about my journey into motherhood, my love for Ben, my ever evolving relationship with the Lord, my very new journey into the world of homeschooling, maybe a recipe or two (since I now enjoy cooking), my love of fashion and styling and interior design, an image I took that I love, things that I battle and my small victories….you’ll probably read about all these things and more.

The last thing I want to say to intro this new writing journey, is if you’re a mom reading this, who loves the pretty stereotypical mom stuff that you can find a lot of out there (blogging about deals on diapers and the latest insanely complicated kids craft you’ve come up with…yea I envy that mom….writing about making every single holiday a beautiful success, blogging about the best potty training techniques or how to get that crazy stain out of your kids clothes…), you might get bored here…or you might feel like “here” is home. God bless all you moms who love the above, someones got to! But I’m not your typical mama I’ve found, and after years of feeling like the outcast mom I’ve decided that its an element of my ‘becoming a mom’ that I love. Because I am not a woman who had children to lose who she was and find a new identity. I am not a woman who gave up all her passions when she had kids and now cant find her identity in anything BUT her kids. I am not that mom who washed her kids pacifiers when they fell in the dirt. (I licked it off, duh. plus, 5 second rule.) I never did anything the way I was supposed to and like most of the rest of my life, I kind of did my own thing and made my own mistakes and made motherhood what I wanted it to be. I became a mom to love my kids and raise them up in the Lord…and, to be absolutely rad just like their daddy. I’m still in “the weeds”, as an older wiser mom once told me, but I feel like now that Josiah and Darby are 3 and 4, I have a handle on this thing. A small handle, but more peace about it than ever before.

So, yo. I’m Rebekah. Come back ok?

 

xoxo, bek